Your Name by Makoto Shinkai

That wasn't fair.. I wasn't readying my heart to the greatest heart break of them all. But I ended watching one of the greatest happy ending of all. I just watched an anime series Future Diary when I watched Your Name. I feel blessed for having that done so. Before that I also watch Charlotte, an anime series.

The movie delve into science fiction (sci-fi) without realizing it. At least to me. If not sci-fi, I guess, it's surrealism in film genre, or something. Everything just blended wonderfully. I always thought it's a heart breaking romance but it isn't, it had a happy ending.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, Taki Tachibana is still in the underworld, poisoned by the long forgotten sake made by Mitsuha Miyamizu. And what we're seeing is nothing more than Taki's delusion. The small town of Itomori is still destroyed and Mitsuha is long gone. All the things that have happened with Taki is just him with his personality disorder, he probably have a multiple personality disorder or something.. It wasn't really stated in any where the film that Taki had an unfortunate life to develop a mental disorder save for the fact that the first time we saw him he had a bandage on his face.

But I don't like the idea. He had good friends. His father isn't very strict. His job may have shitty customer but he's good with everyone in his workplace. Him as Mitsuha shows excellence while playing basketball in her PE, meaning he does sport. Sound body, sound mind. No reason for him to have a mental disorder, right?

Anyway, I just want to talk about paradoxes and a certain price it might cost.

What we saw happened was a paradox, in relation to time. Mitsuha have already died, the reality in the future of Taki, says it all. Including the name of the deceased, pictures and news of what had happened. Yet, in the golden hour, the two managed to talk with each other, in person and re-write history. How so?

My theory is that, this certain paradox may happen if a certain price is paid. As for what happened, the price that they paid is their memory. of each other. It starts out with forgetting their name until they've forgotten who each other was. Just like a dream, right? Unless, you're using a dream journal, dreams are often times easily forgotten.

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Sorry, I seemed to have gotten way too excited after finishing the movie that I start writing such absurd none sense...

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But even if they've forgotten about each other, he still saved her. She saved them all.

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After Taki as Mitsuha take the grandmother and Yotsuha to the mountains and to the shrine, they stopped in an overlooked of the whole Itomori. He had seen the greatest view in all of his life, he wanted to stay for just a bit more. But, the grandmother woke him up. Just a bit more, he would want to stay it that way. As for Mitsuha as Taki, perhaps she did actually fell in love with Miki Okudera, that she wanted to see how the date go. Or perhaps at that time, she already fell in love with Taki.

Both of them woke up, crying. They each wanted to stay with each for a bit more. Or rather, they just want to know more about each other, not just by memo's left and messages but talk to each other for real. But after that, they could no longer. The dreams never came back. The intense desire lead them golden hour meeting.

After drinking the sake in the shrine, Taki saw what had happened. Only when he, as Mitsuha, talked with Yotsuha, did he realized that Mitsuha also wanted to see her. That she went to Tokyo just to see him. But she was three years from the past. Mitsuha met Taki for the first time in Tokyo three years ago. Taki never knew her but still for some reason, asked her name and Mitsuha gave her a memento, her tie.

That golden hour meeting was the greatest to have ever happened. I am always crying whenever I watch anime music video clip in youtube when I see this scene. The two of them running, chasing after the voice of each, only to find out they couldn't see other. And when the right time came, the golden hour, like magic, they were right before each other.

The chat was amazing, not romantic lovey-dovey type, but seriously realistic. My tears were thrown off guard when they were making a comic scene. But alas, the golden hour is fleeting and it was too late for them to say see you again. Paradox happened at the moment on. The town couldn't be saved but the people were. The written reality in Taki where 500 died in the meteor shower, rewritten, no one died.

It had a price though. Their memories. Their memories of each other.

As Mitsuha run to save the town folk she couldn't remember the name of the boy who foretold of their future. The boy he just fell in love with. The boy, who for some odd reason, said to write his name on her palm, confessed. 'I love you,' as written on the palm of Mitsuha. As for Taki, he shouted the name of Mitsuha for a few times and suddenly, he could no more. He tried to write the name but he couldn't remember. Why was he in the mountain? he asked himself. He couldn't remember. Both of them couldn't remember each other.

Few years passed, Taki graduated and was struggling to find a job. He wanted to make beautiful landscapes just like what he saw in Itomori when he took the grandmother and Yotsuha to the shrine. He wanted everyone to see the beauty of things, right before things disappear. But, he just wasn't lucky.

He had another pain going as well, though. A certain void is missing in his heart and he is for the whole time, after going down the mountain of Itomori, unhappy about it. He was looking for something. He was looking for someone. And one day, a chance encounter, arrived. He saw Mitsuha, all grown up, probably a year younger than her or older, in a train car beside his.

He quickly ran looking for her and chasing the probably place she could have walk to. Mitsuha did so as well. When the time finally arrived, Mitsuha was on top a hill and Taki at the bottom. Mitsuha climbed down as Taki climbed up. They walked passed each other. They were strangers after all, they don't know each other. Their name, or who the other one is. I doubt if both of them also remember each others face.

But right before it just pass by, Taki mustered his courage and spoke to her, asking her: "have we met?" Mitsuha replied, "I thought so too." As she cried tears she doesn't understood falling. Just like a mirror, Taki cried as he heard her answer. Then in unison both of them asked: "You name?"

They may have lost their memories but not their love for each other. Love is something beyond memories, perhaps?

A passing dream, coincidence, a price they have to pay. They love each other, right? For both of them perfectly fits what each of them was looking for.

Perhaps this is what you'd call a soulmate, right? Without knowing about anything of your loved one, they perfectly fit with what you were missing, longing, looking for.

Here's a link for the film, have fun and enjoy.
https://www3.kissanime.video/anime/kimi-no-na-wa-episode-1