Black Bullet (anime) by Tatsuhiko Urahata, Masayuki Kojima

https://animelon.com/video/57983a4c641f6457395b6ae5
https://animelon.com/video/57983a4b641f6457395b6ae2 - from the previous post

This last episode as well the one I previously posted with regards to this anime moved me. Though the last episode didn't make cry, I felt a bit relieved. The anime was all about the fighting and somehow I forgot his one lesson that should be priority principle: to be human. I hardly notice it but the anime is all about growing up.
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In the series, the whole is over run by monsters called Gastrea, huge evolved monsters that comes to annihilate all the human race. They reproduce or rather multiply by converting human to monsters. Humanity's hope last on walls they created to fend of the monsters as well as hunter teams (made of pair) to fight off the Gastrea.

The hunter teams are composed of a Promoter and an Initiator. Promoters are humans who are to be both the team leader of the pair as well as guardian of the promoter. The Promoter are special humans which are children infused with the blood of the Gastrea. These children have power up to par with the monsters.  They are called Cursed Children.

Unfortunately, most humanity fails to see the Cursed Children as their savior but only the same as the monsters. They fear these children. Even some of the Promoters sees their partners only as tools for them to use. They all fail to see that these Cursed Children are just children. And just like them, human.

Enju even stated an obvious fact, which Rentaro said only rumor, they are using them the Cursed Children againsts the Gastrea as a mean to kill each other. Two birds with one stone, right?

Rentaro Satomi, our main hero, on the other hand, sees it differently. These Cursed Children people have prejudiced with are just, to him, children, human much like anyone else. They are risking their lives to save everyone. Yet everyone sees them differently. He is a Promoter who wants to do all he could for his Initiator, his Cursed Child partner Enju Aihara.

His kindness to these children even goes out to letting his partner go to school as he alone take on jobs that requires both of them. He wanted to give her a normal human life, just like anyone else. It was unfortunate that their job as well as their duty to save the world takes more time from his partner.

On one of their mission, they met up with a little girl, a Cursed Child, Kayo. She was used as a tool by her Promoter but due to circumstance they got separated. His chat with her gave a bit of detail to how Rentaro was still a child. Even though it's hypocritical of himself, he lectured the Kayo about killing, stating that she should not fear killing but it is when she becomes unaffected by the killings and deaths around her is what she should feel. He killed a few times, the Cursed Child knows, but she accepted his lectures.

It was ironic, that only in the last episode did Rentaro noticed that he had grown up and the deaths around him have unaffected him. It became all to normal. He held on tight to Enju asking her to stay be his side no matter what. He had lost his ways and only Enju was the only thing that helped him back.

He had grown but to what price? He lost himself.

One thing that held me back from crying, thought the Firefly King, the hero realizes his mistake and went back to the light. The hero cries his heart out to his little comrade. He lost a lot, in those he also lost himself. He became what he feared the most. He broke his principle. Even though he thought he held himself up right while the world breaks him, he thought he won't break.

But he broke. Only when his little comrade made him realized his dents, his cracks and tear, did he realized he was broken. He cried and held her tight. He became afraid of himself, while at the same time, he was saved.

The lost hero was found, thought the Firefly King and smiled. What a wonderful story. I wish to know more of what is to happen. I wonder when.

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The world is cruel...
(Kayo died by Rentaro's hand, it was protocol. When the corruption rate of a Initiator pass a certain limit, it is inevitable they will turn to Gastrea, monsters. He had to shoot her, a little girl. She smiled and told him how happy they met each other. Rentaro was tearful as he pulled the trigger)
(Midori killed herself because she doesn't want to let others feel the burden. As the leader of their battle, it was his duty to see to it that protocols are met. Rentaro wanted to save her but Midori knows the truth. She knows what will happen. She excused herself to take a breather. Unbeknownst to everyone, she killed herself)
(His admired superior in martial arts class, Shoma. As Rentaro tries to sacrifice himself to save everyone, he fails. Shoma rescued him and tells him that he will do the fatal blow. Shoma sacrificed himself to defeat a super sized Gastrea)
(Everyone in his class, the little girls, the Cursed Children that he thought, that have dreams. That he somehow have grown attached with aside from Enju. Dying from an explosion unbeknownst to them)

Yet after all this, it doesn't have to be ugly. (ripped from Jhin in League of Legends - I don't play this game):

(Enju is always their for him and when Enju needs him, he is always there either looking after her or chasing after her, she's just a child after all)