Poetry #188

You're in love again,

are you not?

You never have to say

or be aware,

You just are.

Like you always do.

Sooner or later,

perhaps now,

You're feeling it.

The pain that comes after.

2021 #1

"From here on, it will just get harder and harder. You've been here before, many times over, countless of times. And here you are still. Are you not-

"At this point, I believe, you're doing it on purpose. It gets painful, you know? You remember it, do you? You're going to cry, sooner or later."

"I'm not in love."

"Lied the honest man who fails miserably at lying."

"But I really am not."

"That's what you said before too. And afterwards, you get hurt and cry."

"But I'm not-"

"Yes, you are."

"I'm in love?"

"Who isn't? But unlike you. You're wasting it."

"I'm in love?"

"You don't really know, do you? You're unaware of it, are you not?"

"I don't know."

"It's simple. You're afraid to get hurt and so you don't."

"I'm not."

"And your fear of getting hurt is hurting you just as bad. The world conspires and you ignore the signs and miracles.

"If you keep at it. It will just hurt a lot more. Maybe one day, you won't take it anymore and you'd just go dive head first. I just hope it's heart that breaks and not your head."