Poetry #163

My apology, for this truth I bear
is both certain and true.

For one, we are always in constant war
and another, there is no balance without chaos.

When finally this war have reached it's conclusion
then true peace when we're finally laid to rest.

As for the balance and chaos,
tell me, of this constant lie we are fed.

Either of my apology and the true
of my sin and lie I failed to tell,

We are never free
nor are we never committed.

Quarantine Thought

A little thought of what's going on right now:

As of now, I never thought that something like this would happen in my lifetime. I wonder how our predecessors cope up with pandemics and outbreaks? I am certain that the masses of the lower class, economically, are having a really hard time in this trying time.

For one thing, the community quarantines and lock downs in certain areas takes great toll toward their financial necessities and sooner or later, I'm pretty sure, without much improvement or rather "direct hands on" of the greater government, anarchy of some sort would ensue. But I'm pretty sure, as well, that things won't go that far. People have evolved, even though disaster and chaos have too, even still, people have evolved. So perhaps, this thought of anarchy might just be a guess and nothing more than that.

Another thing would be the morale of the community. Even though I find it annoying but I guess I and a lot more people should be thankful that a certain trend is keeping the moral of people at a normal level. It is really annoying yes but at least the people are happy, right? I'm referring to the mobile app, "Tiktok" by the way. I don't generally hate it but I just find it annoying. Nothing more.

I guess that's the two sides that are clashing right now, the financial crisis the people are currently facing and the morale that they are trying to keep up.

Beyond these two things though, there are the matters of education, isolation, distancing and obeying rules and protocols.

1. Rules and protocols, between obeying rules and the call to satiate one's hunger, in a young culture that we live in, I'd say the greater mass would choose the latter. Thus rules of staying at home and trying to isolate oneself is hardly a possible task for everyone. I am sure that the people in my country do not just waltz around doing nothing but leisure. The people in my country are bred in hard work, diligence and honesty.

I'm just saddened that as a young culture, even though we are enthusiastic about things and all, even though we are a culture of good people and kind heart, we are easily swayed into doing things that isn't right. That is what I meant by being in a young culture. Other than that, being in a young culture, we never or rather we have little interest of the past. We always look forward for the latest trend, for the majority at least, in my opinion.

With regards to distancing, I am pretty sure, physical distancing and physical contact will be something that will hardly be lessened let alone disappear by rules and implementation of laws. Though I said we people of a young culture, certain norm and habit will hardly die, especially those simple that easily and ultimately show affection and respect. This things are habitually and easily thought at our early age even up to when we are already old and have gone and married in all. These are manners that are ingrained in our mind and soul by virtue. Though I do believe there will come a time when these habit will soon die out. Even still, this is part of our culture that can't seem to fade. I hope.

For isolation and distancing, I think I'll make another post regarding to that. It'll be a short post, I guess, but it's just what's in my thought.

I hope you guys are safe and dreaming well.

Poetry #162

Suddenly, everything
and all
just taste
bland and
feel trivial.

Nothing else
seemed to
spark that
usual enthusiasm
you usually
always have.

Everything became
routine and
even those
miracles that
you so
always glorify
no matter
minute or
tasteless they
even are,

You lose
sight, touch
and feeling.

It's no
longer there.

Have you
lost love?

or perhaps

have your
love lose?

Poetry #161

"Just give up already,"
my frail heart asked me.

I wanted to say yes,
I really do.

But, I wasn't courageous
enough to fall in love.

And so, I kept on hurting.

Poetry #160

All along
I thought
You were
The one
that was
never there.

Few days
hence after
I realized,

You were
there all
along and
I wasn't.

Was the
love real?

Poetry #159

Maybe it's just a silly day dream,
Or was I really dreaming?

But mayhaps, I've misheard you
calling my name,
instead of telling me:
"look at the stars,
they shine."

I did as you said.
They really do.

But once I looked back,
you're no longer there.

Year 2020

What happened?

I don't want to do any recap or whatever since I'm certain a lot of sites and whatsoever have already posted about it. I shouldn't be writing about these contemporary new but even still, to you who ever read this:

Please be safe. Stay strong. You'll get through it. You and your love ones. This is a just a temporary hurdle nothing else. And if you don't want to think about it as such, I understand you. Not all problem is the same. I apologize in advance if I'm rude. But know that whatever is happening right now, you'll get through it.

And at the end of it all, a sigh of relief and a smile.

As for those who by then were lost. They have found their way. Pretty sure, they are smiling at us.

My apology if I took a while

So far, it has been a hectic year. And that is or rather was outside the norm and contemporaries. Work has been booming and I'm glad and thankful for that but I couldn't get the time write. Though I started a new page in another website, I could hardly get the time to write anything.

And awfully, my writings/post/articles there are not so good.

I wish I have more time though..

But whatever.

I got lots of pending animes that I couldn't catch up to. Even writings/articles and dreams that I would like to write about aren't being published and some are just left stuck in my forgetful memory.

I'm really a mess right now. I'll write some more if I got the time or rather if the situation in my country change. And I hope everyone's country's get better soon.

That's it for now. And again, I'm really sorry that I couldn't write anything here. Three months without anything... left blank and all.