School Days (Anime): Kotonoha Katsura

"Kotonoha Katsura," a faint voice whispered. "Are you happy?"

The yacht floats off to the horizon with Kotonoha still holding the severed head of her lover. At least, they can be forever.

"He's dead," the faint voice continued. "Are you sad?"

Kotonoha smiled, not minding the voice she is hearing. The warm ray of the sun grew less as it sets on. She held the head tighter.

"Forever, Makoto. Together, we are forever. No one will find us here. I killed her for you. She hurts you, right? I killed her for you. Don't worry, I don't care of who you've been with. I forgive you. I know you forgive me too, right? I slept with your friend, because I was very sad at that time but you forgave me, right? You understood me the most, right? You love me the most, right?"

"He's dead, Kotonoha Katsura," the faint voice repeated.

"He's with me. We will be forever together now," she said. She heard the faint voice. "No one will find us here, no one will take him away from me. We will stay together, forever."

"He's dead."

"He's here, with me. Touching my hand."

"That's his head."

"I just love how my fingers brush off Makoto's hair. Though he doesn't clean it. I just love everything about him."

"That's his severed head. It's rotting."

"I love how you smell, Makoto."

"He is decaying, Kotonoha Katsura," the faint voice repeated. "He is dead. Seika Saionji killed him."

"I killed her," Kotonoha said. "Don't worry, Makoto. She can no longer hurt you."

The Firefly King sighed. He can't win against this woman's delusion.

"Is this his promise to you," the Firefly King asked.

"Yes! Yes! Makoto promised me to watch the sunset with me, when we get her. And here he is with me. His promise for me. I don't care if he lied to me with the After-Festival dance. I don't care if he had sex with Seika. He's here with me. He did it all for me. I'm happy. I'm happy. We can be together, finally."

"I've seen worlds similar to yours with slight deviation," the Firefly King said. "Care to see them?"

"No, I'm happy right now. Nothing could make more happy."

"There is this one instance where Makoto saved you and you both lived a happy life," the Firefly King revealed. "Would you care to see it?"

Kotonoha was silent. She held the head of Makoto tighter. The sun have finally set. The clouds gave way for the moon and the stars to shine brighter.

"Are you sad, Kotonoha Katsura?"

"I love you, Makoto. I love you, Makoto. I love you, Makoto. I love you, Makoto."

The Firefly King sighed. She have died the time Makoto left her for Seika in the After-Festival dance. Though got reborn but died once more when Makoto revealed to her the end of their relationship. I'm too late to save her. Why must her love be too unconditional? Why must her love be too forgiving?

She was lonely in the entirety of the story. Often bullied for stating facts that are true, she is her girlfriend, but always gets rejected or sidetrack by her boyfriend. No one was by her side the whole time. Her first friend, Seika Saionji betrayed her. She promised to help her but she betrayed her. Yet she forgave her.

What broke her completely was seeing the dead body of Makoto. Seika killed her Makoto. Seika hurt Makoto in ways she would never do. Seika betrayed Makoto. Seika took and kept Makoto all for herself. She forgave all of this. But Seika taking away Makoto forever. Seika killing Makoto. That's something she cannot forgive.

In truth, if Seika didn't meddle with the secret admiration of Makoto for Kotonoha. None of this would have happened. The two, Makoto and Kotonoha, would have been strangers. But, the bridge that would connect them will be the same bridge that would take away her lover.

I wish I could re-write your tragic story, Kotonoha Katsura.

You did your best. You tried everything. You changed yourself. You forgave everything. You have been all too kind. Live an honest but tragic life. If you hadn't known the two. If you've stayed as just a distant admiration for Makoto. Perhaps, someone else would have come and saved you.

Odd enough, I can't weep for you but know that I am truly sad for you. You who've betrayed and lied upon over and over again. And for all of those, find the bright side and able to forgive it all but one thing. Your love is just too incomprehensible for me to understand. I'm sorry.

The sailing yacht continued on to the horizon. I flew away before I fell in love with ignorance.

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