Why was I writing again?

Why was I writing again? I came back to site, this blog, just because I had, at the moment, free time. Apparently, I'm in hiatus of the trivial things I suddenly cared about. There will always come a point when you want to take a break, right? Right now, I'm just watching animes most of the time. I got pile of books laid before but it seemed my interest to these have waned.

In short, I got bored.

I never really liked watching animes when I was still in school, and here I am now, watching my heart out of these series, films and adaptation. Funny if I recall why, I just don't have much time for animes. I preferred reading the manga. I'll be saying all the time, when a friend of mine asks me to watch a certain series, too much time consuming, mangas are faster to read and they are what most anime series as based on. Why would I want to watch anime? I'd always rant.

Here I am, watching anime... I also got piles of anime in my bookmark that I haven't yet read for a long time. I'm afraid, I've forgotten a lot of what had happened. Mangas I used to read: Tower of God, the Gamer, One Piece and One Punch Man these are still on going. If I want to get back, I probably would need to read the chapter one again... I find it a hassle now. In my mind there are two things that bugs me... reading manga now is too time consuming, and if I want to re-read the manga I left, I probably have forgotten any characters in there... I won't be able to catch up with what was happening.

I hate forgetting, to be honest. My memories isn't all that great either.

Going back to my first question, why was I writing again? And why did I suddenly write anime reviews and character analysis? Originally, I want to write stories and poems once more. But it seems my fear of forgetting leads me to write these silly articles.

Should I keep at it? Writing these anime reviews and character analysis? Believe you me, I'm having trouble writing for things I find to be uninteresting, but at the same time I don't want to forget anything. Even I'm just a viewer, not even an otaku, all the experience, the empathy I had for the characters, are all real. I don't want to forget any of it all.

It's funny that a friend of mine, few weeks before, asked me of an anime I used to talk about him, and I couldn't recall. I do have my list of animes to watch but there are animes that I watched that I didn't write on the list. I wonder what that is.

That aside, me writing the tale of the Captain and the Dilemma him and his crews are facing are, therapeutic to me, at least. But I'm afraid, I'd get bored to a point my writing will be messy. I'm really not a good writer, I guess.

Lastly, the Firefly King... here's a straight and short description of this character of mine, imagine the possibility of you as a reader/viewer being able to suddenly join your favorite character in the adventure. That's what I feel when I add the Firefly King in any of the anime series I've watched.

I have no license or whatsoever to change the plot, but odd enough I just want to talk to the characters in the series or movies I'm currently interested at. More like a deeper empathizing with the characters. I could change the story but I choose not to. I guess you could say, a chat with Firefly King is nothing but a filler episode. I also botch capturing the charm of the characters I'm writing about.

It stem from me wanting to save them but I guess, the path they chose is for them own to choose. And who is the Firefly King but just a passing firefly.

God, I'm lonely. :D

Well, anyway, I guess I'll continue writing. It will almost be time for me to stay away from writing, about a month or two. Then comes New Year. I do hope I could write more.

Before I forget.